On Sunday, Jan. 15, 2006 @ 3:26 AM
Lately, I've been having the weirdest dreams ever. Two nights ago, I dreamed that me and one of my best friends were on our way to Las Vegas. On the way, we listened to "System of a Down". For some reason that stuck out in my mind. Then we took a tour from a helocopter of the city. I am scared to death of heights, and this wasn't a closed chopper, this was one of those open ones like the Army uses! I was freaking out. She made me go with her. Then the chopper lowered to the ground about 30 feet up, and I fell off in the middle of nowhere, and they just took off without coming back to get me! I was terrified. Then, the crazy thing was, my friend just all of a sudden walks up to me after hours of me wandering around and says "well are you ready to go home now?" Then the dream ended. The weird about this dream? First I haven't seen this friend in over a year! I KNOW I'm A HUGE Asshole, but everytime I'm in Tennessee, we can NEVER meet up. The second weird thing is that it was Vegas we were visiting. I've been thinking about planning a trip to Vegas with my husband. But shit, that was out of left field. And the weirdest thing was that I was really scared of that city! Maybe I just was in the wrong part of the city during my dream. Anyhow, now the scariest dream. And it was a little wierd too. Last night I dreamed that my Grandmother and me were on a road trip somewhere in my Mother's truck. My Grandmother was driving, and we were somewhere in Minnesota. Actually I think we were in Minneapolis. And we had stopped at a gas station for directions, and the clerk told us wich way to go. We turned out of the gas station the way he told us to, and ended up in a flood. Then my Grandmother tries to turn around, but can't and we're swept away by the water, which was like a river. And we are swept down into a school! Yes a school building. We get out but get separated, and I run up stairs till I find people just sitting in class as if nothing is going on. I'm screaming at the top of my lungs for someone to help me and help my Grandmother, and the people just look at me and the teacher says "There is no flood, God himself couldn't flood this school." - like were on the Titanic! How fucking strange is this? So, I'm definately freaking out, when finally my old Softball coach comes in and helps me. He drags my Grandmother out of the school, and gets in my Mom's truck, which mind you that is what were driving, and we end up back at the gas station where the dream started out! So, I was a little freaked out by that second dream, and I tried to call my Grandmother today to see if she is okay. I sometimes get the feeling that we dream things about certain people because they are on our subconscience mind and there COULD be something wrong. Just a feeling I have. But they didn't answer thier phone, and I KNOW if something was wrong, my Mom would call me instantly. OR WOULD SHE? That's the thing... I never know with her. She says she would call the instant something were to happen, but would she really? She might want to wait and see if everything is okay, becausae after all, I'm 2000 miles away and what can I really do but worry? And true worrying never does any good, but WTF? I think I have a right to know how things are back home with my family. Oh my God I'm rambling on like a baboon. I'm so sick though. I hate being here. Ever since I got back from this last visit home, I've been miserable. And I'm always worrying about my family back there. I know lots of people aren't very close to thier family, and some would probably even prefer their families living 2000 miles away, but that's not me. I LOVE my family. Especially my Grandparents. They raised me. I lived with them for a majority of my life, including my teenage years. So it's weird, but they are my parents. And after my last visit, I just saw that they really are getting older and more fragile. Espcially my Grandmother. Neither are in perfect health, and it scares me being so far away. If one of them were to have a heart attack, I might not get there in time. If they couldn't save them, I probably wouldn't even get to say goodbye. God, this has turned into a morbid entry. The thing is, I think that these dreams are being fumed from my worries. I know I need to stop, and honestly I'm not the type to always worry about shit. I usally take life a day at a time, and I am one of those few people in life that accepts the fact that shit happens, and there is nothing you can do about shit happening, so you just have to let the shit take it's course and live with it. But, this isn't "shit", it's my parents, and the poeple that are the closest to me. And I HATE being so far away from them, I want to be able to enjoy my family, not constantly miss them. God, we have to get out of here. Soon. Fuck. Okay, I'm done with that. I need to get my mind off of it. I have a migraine anyway, so I should just shut up. I took this survey, a different survey than before, to make me feel better I guess. Didn't help really, but here it is. So now I'm off to bed to curl up with my US Weekly magazine and read about celebrity gossip. I can't help it, I'm addicted to it. It's my only guilty pleasure in life. Alright so good night or good morning everyone...enjoy the survey. Again. The Good, The Bad, and the Ugly! - A Survey of Your Life | * So Basically... * | Name?: | Amanda | Age?: | 23 | Sex?: | not in the mood...oh yea FEMALE | Birth Date?: | 23 years ago..hehe May 21st | Hair Color?: | Fire...oh okay it's Red | Eye Color?: | Blue/Green | Height?: | 5 Feet 4 Inches | Weight?: | yea right...not telling | Body Type?: | average | Piercings?: | used to have a lot, not just the norm | Tattoos?: | One, on my right shoulder, and i love it | What are you wearing right now?: | yoga pants, sweatshirt | Hair style at the moment?: | down, curly, layered, red??? i don't know | * Favorites * | Soda?: | don't drink them much, but when I do it's Pepsi | Food?: | Italian | Drink?: | Sweet Tea | Alcoholic Drink?: | Cosmopolitan | Time of day?: | NIGHT | Season?: | FALL | Day of the week?: | Sunday...it's our lazy day I LOVE IT | Song at the moment?: | Daughters | Band/Artist?: | A Perfect Circle, Smashing Pumpkins, Tool, Dave Matthew's Band, Interpol, Incubus, and so many more | Book?: | White Oleander | Subject in school?: | not in school | Place in the USA?: | Nashville | Place outside the USA?: | I want to go to Italy, but I've never been out of the country so I don't have a favorite place just yet | Color?: | Pink, Black, Red | Style of clothes?: | whatever I like | Store?: | wherever there is a sale | Mall?: | HATE MALLS | City?: | Nashville | Website?: | whatever I'm looking at | Magazine?: | I like Parents...or US Weekly, I'm a sucker for gossip | Kind of pet?: | FISH! | * Worst * | Place to be?: | Idaho | Class in school?: | Math | Time of dayr?: | the Morning | Season?: | Summer...too hot | Kind of pet?: | Cats...I'm allergic, but they are good pets | Drink?: | anything with alcohol | Food?: | most veggies | Mall?: | any mall | Store?: | most of them | Style of clothes?: | whatever is "in style" | Celebrity?: | the peole that came from "Reality TV" | Color?: | pukey green?? i dunno | Book?: | not sure | Type of music?: | country | Website?: | this one...haha | Magazine?: | who cares | * Daily Life * | When do you get up?: | 6:30 AM | What is your first thought?: | "I need a cigarette" | What do you do first?: | smoke a cigarette | What's your usual outfit?: | whatever is comfortable and clean | What's the first class of the day?: | don't have class | When does school end?: | don't go to school | Do you see your friends?: | not in school | What do you do when you get home?: | i'm always home | What time do you go to bed?: | whenever i feel like it | * Do you...*: | what the fuck? | Brush your teeth daily?: | of course | Brush your hair daily?: | yes | Shower daily?: | YES | Sing?: | sure do | Dance?: | sure do | Party?: | not so much | Get drunk?: | not so much | Have sex?: | not so much....HAHA KIDDING! | Read books?: | yes all the time | Listening to music a lot?: | OF COURSE | Read magazines?: | yes | Go online a lot?: | all the time | Stay on AIM all day even with an away message?: | umm...yes..i'm a nerd | Have a religion?: | no | Have an IPod?: | no | Want an IPod?: | YES! | Have a Girlfriend/Boyfriend?: | nope, but i do have a husband | Play an instrument?: | yes | Get sick a lot?: | sometimes | Watch TV?: | just DVDs no cable | Like MTV?: | FUCK NO | Like VH1?: | not really | Like the History Channel?: | sure | Have Digital Cable?: | not anymore | Have more than 500 channels on your TV?: | nope | Listen to the radio?: | sometimes | Still use your CD player?: | OF COURSE | Stalk people?: | no | Have more than 200 buddies on your Buddy List?: | nope | Have dial-up internet?: | FUCK NO | Have AOL?: | messenger, not service | Know HTML?: | yes | Have a GPA higher than 3.9?: | yes...in college anyway | Get H's in honors classes?: | we didn't have H's, just As | * Music * | Do you listen to Rap?: | very little | R & B?: | very little | Blues and/or Jazz?: | sometimes | Classical?: | yes | Pop?: | NO | Country?: | NO | Emo/Scremo?: | not really into it | Heavy Metal?: | yes | Christian?: | no | Techno?: | not really | Reggae?: | nope | Broadway Musical songs?: | sure | Oldies?: | classic rock count? | * In A Boyfriend/Girlfriend * | Hair color?: | i don't care | Eye color?: | i don't care | Tattoos?: | ditto | Piercings?: | not too many | Favorite Music?: | my husband likes my kind of music | Style of clothing?: | don't care | Body Type?: | ditto | Personality or Looks?: | can't be shallow | Would you go out with someone just for their money?: | fuck no | Do you go on "Pity Dates"?: | i did once | Does size matter?: | size of what?...haha | Do they have to be popular?: | don't care | Does the guy ask the girl or the other way around?: | doesn't matter | Where do you go on the first date?: | my husband and i went to dinner and a movie | Kiss on the first date?: | we did | Sex on the first date?: | no way! | * Right Now * | Do you think you look good right now?: | not really | Are you eating something?: | yep, yogurt | Are you drinking something?: | yep, sweet tea | Are you IMing anyone?: | yep | Are you talking on the phone with someone?: | nope | Are you talking face to face with someone?: | nope | Is anyone at your house who doesn't live there?: | nope | What song are you listening to?: | Interpol..PDA | What are you watching on TV?: | nothing | What other websites do you have open?: | Myspace | Why are you taking this survey?: | because I am bored | Where are you going to post it?: | Diaryland...maybe Myspace | What are you going to do after this?: | write an entry in my Diary | * What do you Believe? * | Do you believe in ghosts?: | nope | The afterlife?: | not sure yet | Aliens?: | anything is possible | God?: | yes | The devil?: | maybe | Heaven?: | maybe | Hell?: | maybe | Scientology?: | no | Hinduism?: | not my belief | Buddhism?: | ditto | Christianity?: | i don't have a religion, so i'm not christian | Taoism?: | nope | Judism?: | not my belief | Jesus?: | ditto | Nothing?: | i believe in something | Reincarnation?: | nope | Yourself?: | Sometimes | * Randoms * | Have you been on an airplane before?: | Yes | Where were you going?: | Which time...most recently I went home to Nashville | Have you been to another country?: | not yet | Have you ever went to another country with your friends?: | nope | Have you ever partied in another country?: | nope | Have you ever went on a roadtrip with your friends?: | yes | Ever stayed online more than 10 hours straight?: | yes | Pretended to like someone just to get popular?: | fuck no | Talked about someone behind their back?: | who hasn't? | Had someone talk about you behind your back?: | who hasn't? | Been in a fight online?: | yep | Been in a fight face to face?: | of course | Gotten yourself involved in a fight that wasn't about you?: | ugh, yes | Been called a bitch?: | of course | Been called a slut/whore?: | yep | Been to Australia?: | nope | Do you like snakes?: | nope | Ever cried to get your own way?: | nope | Ever broken a bone?: | yep | Ever had to stay in the hospital for more than a week?: | nope | Ever had serious surgery?: | nope | Ever looked a porn online?: | actually no | Ever went to one of those "adult" stores?: | yep | Ever bought clothes at Walmart?: | yep | Ever gotten clothes from the Salvation Army?: | no | Ever paid more than 100 dollars for a pair of jeans?: | fuck no | Ever been on stage for any reason?: | yep, lots of times | Ever been in a play?: | yep | Ever been in a choir?: | yep | Ever been in a band?: | yep | Do you play, or used to play, an instrument?: | yep | Gotten a Brazilian Bikini Wax?: | nope | Waxed your eyebrows?: | yep | Waxed your legs?: | yep | Cut yourself shaving?: | yep | Have you ever died?: | are you kidding me? | Was this survey an good at all?: | it was okay | What time is it right now?: | 3:24 AM | Take this survey | Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d |
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